a connection

what is this feeling,
when your heart is in pain?
it won't go away..
it stays in place taunting your heart.
the pounding gets harder,
hurting my rib cage.
my mind keeps racing to that one person,
cant stop thinking about him.
as i make a wish,
my eyes fill up with tears.
i just need a connection,
just one more chance to hear his voice,
to see his face.
his dimpled smile.
but now he is with someone else,
i didn't have a chance to tell him...
i love him <3

The Three Magic Words

The secret I have on the tip of my tongue,
The secret I have in the middle of you and me.
The lies that float in your head,
The lies that spill out over me.
The thoughts that keep repeating,
The thoughts that never slip away.
Just ask the truth you want,
The word or phrase that is the answer.
The peace maker of the start,
Just ask me to follow us.
Just tell me you love me,
Three magic little words.

Coming back

We lost each other over the summer,
Not knowing what street to take.
The signs keep hitting you in the face,
But they are telling you to not follow.

I've never spent this much time away from you,
But the clock keeps ticking by.
Until I get it right,
I need to fast forward.

I've never felt this way before,
The lies ware off.
As I realize the truth,
I need to stop the haze.

I shouldn't keep this from you,
The positive and the negative.
Even if you might turn around,
That maybe you'll come back.

But now we're back in the fall,
The fall we took in the summer collided.
Now the secrets hidden on my lips are opening,
Now that I have you.

I sit on the couch,
with my head thrown back.
I sigh with contentment,
from the scene thats before me.
You and Me..
You sit there next to me,
holding my hand.
I look up at you,
and smile.
You look down and smile back.
You get up,
and leave me to think.
My eyes start to close,
while I drift into a deep sleep.
You come back,
I hear your feet on the carpet.
You plop down on the couch,
which wakes me from my slumber.
You lean towards me and give me a peck on the cheek,
I love you I say.
"I love you too."
So I'm just trying to tell you I'll love you forever and more.

Blood

The smell catches my nose,
That sends me on a jagged path.
The taste enters my mouth,
And I can't stop from tasting until no more.
The look of it makes my mouth water,
The sweet red mist pours out.

The only word you can say to stop me is,
I love you.
It drowns out the blood,
The only thing I listen to.
Your mouth opens,
"I love you", you say through the pain.
I stop right on the path,
And instead of finishing the last of you,
I save your life for mine.

Should I?

Should I be afraid?
Of you behind the mask?
Should I be afraid?
Please just come and tell me the truth,
The truth that will dissolve the lies.
The lies that are the breaking relationship between us,
Our relationship that is on the last string.
Just open up your mouth and tell me.

Am I not worth your time?
Just come back to me,
with your true colors shining.
I put up a fake smile,
while the hatred wells up inside.
Please is the only word I can say,
while I am drowning in my own blood.

Open Book

I am an open book as you say,
everyone peels out the thoughts of what I am.
They look deeper into my eyes,
and find untold secrets.
They tear and take everything in reach,
until there is no more to be looked upon.
The source of it is the beholder behind the mask,
they keep fighting and coming back for more.
I feel their stares behind my back,
their gossip that laces their lips.
But should I give into it and tell them what they want to hear?
All the lies they put me up to,
no more room for truth.
Even though they mistake them for lies,
I fight back until the open book leaves.